By the by, I have switched to livejournal for security reasons. thisismylivejournal. It's time I said goodbye to this blog. It's been a good time, and I'll miss you, but I've been forced to gated communities where I can force people to respect my wishes of privacy.

167. Rasputina - The New Zero
Nothing is safe or private here anymore. Do I have ANY privacy from you? Any room to live my own life? You're driving me mad! I'va asked my parent's multiple times not to read this, on here, in person, you name it, I've done it. Like Kendall said, it may be public but just because I leave my diary in public doesn't mean I want YOU reading it. This does not apply to my friends, or strangers (obviously). I'm seriously considering switching almost exclusively to livejournal frinds-only. I can't share anything on here without you freaking out about it and doing something dumb like... hmm... let's see, pasword protecting the entire internet. Yeah, good move there, real intelligent. I'm off to write a livejournal friends-only post. Good day.

843. Tegan and Sara - Frozen
I went for a walk today, unsure where I was going. I walked north, towards work. Stopped there for a coffee and found myself at Chinook. I would have walked further, had I not thought about the time and who may be expecting me at home. A thought struck me as I was around Southland; I allways walk north. Never east, never west, never south... allways north. Towards downtown? Maybe. Towards higher density and inpersonality? Probably. I find I am like Bilbo, passably comfortable where I'm at and unwilling to leave... that is, unless jarred from my place by a force, in his case Gandalf. "It's a dangerous business, leaving your front door. You're never quite sure where the road will take you." In my case I know it's allways right back home. I ache for adventure, but am unwilling to give up my comfortable situation. Where is my Gandalf within? When will I feel compelled to actually do something?

On another note, I bought myself a jucier at Zellers today. That should be interesting. That means now all I need is a pumpkin, and I can make iced pumpkin juice just like in Harry Potter, hee hee. And tonight I'm baking lemon cupcakes with home made orange icing. mmm...

my latest adornment 

6. The Raveonettes - Do You Beleive Her
Hahaha, nevermind. I took another look at the code and came to a good understanding of layers. Goodbye ugly blue toolbar. I like how code follows rules and patterns. It makes it so easy to break.

849. Armour For Sleep - Being Your Walls
New layout, obviously. I'm still working on layering out the annoying little blogger toolbar on the top of the screen. I'd do it now, but I'm lazy. Deal with it. I'll try to layer it out again tomorrow or maybe sunday. Coding makes me all warm and fuzzy inside, I wish I was better at it. This layout is featuring a picture I took of work as I was leaving one night last summer, and lyrics by "From Autumn To Ashes." Go buy their CD, they're awesome. As for the pictures below this post, ignore them, I just needed a server for them, and I knew Angelfire wasn't up to the challenge (nor was I up to the challenge of writing them some more threatening e-mails for better service.)

No one is online, because they all have better things to do *tear* I need more nerd friends from around the globe to talk to while I code and listen to over 1000 mp3's on random. If only I had my own computer... Soon, my friends, soon. It and I will be attatched at the hip. Er, at least while I'm at home. Since I'm not in school, I'd like to take this semester to get back into coding, maybe learn some more script (by mooching off others, which is how I learned to layer this evening... studdying other people code, heh.)

I also need a juicer, so that I can try out this pumpkin juice recipie I found on MuggleNet.

... ignore 

idea for a template image 

848. Armour For Sleep - Kind of Perfect
Today, after work, I went down to 17th ave with Sara to get pierced. On the way we got caught up in the aftermath of the explosion under the victoria park bridge. We were there while there were still plumes of smoke rising through the air, and the road wasn't closed. We drive down to Adorned. Sara got her rook pierced, I got my navel. No pics yet, I'm waiting for it to heal a bit and get not icky anymore. I saw Danika at Adorned, but didn't say hello. It was weird, because I kind of know her, but I doubt she even recognises me. Rick was there, he did our piercings. There's something calming about the way he talks you through it all, I'm not sure exactly what it is. Sara was impressed with the clenliness of Adorned, which is a feat in itself.

I got home around 5:30, and haven't been able to do anything for more than fifteen minutes before getting agitated and bored. Something isn't right, I'm not sure what. I tried to watch a movie, and turned it off half way. I tried to watch a TV show, and left the room in search of something different. I should do my laundry, and cook... but real life seems to be boring me tonight. Maybe I'll go play video games in the basement. I'm still stuck at the first dungeon boss in Dark Cloud one. It's time I beat him.

I'm up for something exciting. Maybe I'll go out tomorrow morning... do something worthwhile, like buy comic books... or wander around downtown. Or maybe even take some initiative and call someone up.

Livejournal is down. I really wish I could post a friends-only entry right about now.

842. Tegan and Sara - Superstar
Had a shoot with Melissa today, she needed a man's hands though, so I called Danny and we borrowed him for the shoot as well. I think we got some good pictures; the two fave's that I took are posted below this. Afterwards I drove Melissa home, she was sick and needed to sleep, and Danny and I headed to his place for some hxc Legend of Zelda times. We beat the Forest Temple, but then I had to run home. Got home in time to grab an apple and run out again for church. So, it's been a hopping day... and my dad is kicking me off the computer. I really need my own.

A slightly tweaked photo of Melissa from our shoot. 

Another tweaked photo of Melissa from the shoot today. 

196. Death Cab For Cutie - The Sound of Settling
Yesterday at work was insanity. When I showed up, it was slow, and we spent a good while being terribly bored, wishing for something to do. Yeah, careful what you wish for. Around 4... maybe 4:30, the urinal began gushing water. You could hear it from the desk, it sounded, in my opinion, like a large fountain, in Bre-Ann's opinion, like someone running a bath. Of course, we have no idea what to do, so we call Gerry, who also has no idea what to do. He gave Bre a number to call. Luckily, the bathroom had a drain, or we would have been eye deep in water by the time we figured out how to turn off the water. Of course, when we turn off our water we can't really make anything, so every time a customer came in during the half hour or so period, and ordered something I had to tell them all I could offer was Juice and bottled water from the fridge, blender drinks (until we ran out of blenders) or coffee I had left on brew from before the calamity. By the time it was fixed we had no coffee left. Of course, everyone comes in at the most inopportune time. Other than that monir excitement, it was a fairly average day at work.

Other than work... what have I been up to lately, hmm... I've been trying to get better at the guitar with no guidance, so that's not working out too well. Then I get annoyed because I can't make what's in my head come out my fingers. I really wish I could, it's something that's allways agrivated me. I hate having music, or a painting, or anything in my head that's just so great, that I can't reproduce with my hands. I've been losing hope lately too, that anything is possible. I'm thinking maybe I should stop dreaming and just go to school and take something that I can stand for the rest of my life, because I don't think I could maybe make it as a rock star anymore... I don't think I could maybe make it opening my own cafe, or sailing my own ship, or doing any of the things that really make me love living, just thinking that maybe I could do them one day. Ah well, maybe it's just the season.

I should be of now, to eat some tacos before work.

416. Mailice Mizer - Au Revoir
Hahaha, first and foremost, go read Ryan F's blog (valentine's day post). That's some interesting trivia right there.

Yesterday was fun times, woke up at 10:30, called Danny, picked him up, went to the Y. We didn't pass our Belay tests, but the dude showed us everything we did wrong and how to do it right, and told us to come back next weekend. Even though we didn't pass, he let us climb for a bit, so that was nice. Afterwards Danny and I headed back to my place, picked up some spring rolls and Second Cup beverages on the road, made some rice, and took turns playing Legend of Zelda : Orcarana of Time. Didn't have enough time there to finish anything more than the Deku tree and meeting Zelda, Malon, getting Saria's song.

After I drove him home, I went to church for mass/choir etc. Practice is cancelled tonight because of v-day (ewwww) but at least that gives me more time to get my week in order. We all went out to BP's per usual after mass, I got a salad instead of my beloved french fries *tear*. Ah well, I'm in the middle of making myself taco filling right now, and that's a good, filling meal, which is all I'm really looking for.

I work today from 2-6, I wonder if it will be busy. It seems to have been picking up lately, but people might be having romantic dinners with their sweethearts and not come in. If it's dead, I suppose I could try to plan a bowling/billiards night for work. It seems we do two things together, work and drink. So I figure, doing something at least semi non-alcoholic would be cool once in awhile. Bowling alleys are usually not bar scenario's, and we can still drink when we go to the pool hall. Plus, there are new people that need to be initiated into the "not really a clique at all."

Anywho, I'd best tend to my taco mix, buh-bye.

794. Thursday - Standing on the Edge of Summer
I bought four new CD's the other day; From Autumn to Ashes - The Fiction We Live, Thursday - War All The Time, Story of the Year - Page Avenue, and The Mars Volta - Deloused in the Comatorium. My sister has had the car lately though, so that means no listening to new CD's for me *tear* maybe today.

Today I'm trying to decide whether I need to stay home and do my weekly cooking, or go out and buy tea and eyeliner more desperately. Going out would be funner, but it would be nice to come home to... y'know... having something to eat that doesn't take three hours to prepare. I'm just not sure if I'll have a chance to go out tomorrow, if I do stay home today. And even if I do find the time, who's to say the markets downtown and the shops on 17th will still be open by the time I get there. I'd like to check out what the smallest gague is of these plugs I was looking at last time I was at Divine.

I need a haircut; my hair is getting long again. I also need to dye it but I'm not sure whether I should go for the red or the black. I've got some black dye in my bedroom, but I've been feeling rather red lately. I suppose when I go to pick up my eyeliner and toothpaste from the natural food store I could also just happen to pick up some red henna.

I had a dream last night that I got into both Kinesiology and Engineering, and took the Kinesiology route for the first year. I got to class, which was in a courtyard, and everyone was running around with these little kids. There was a guy in my class who I THINK was a cute guy from my Chinook math class. Anyway, we ended up playing these games with the kids and I remember one of them we had played at Church during the Think Fast. The one where they give us families and we have to model how difficult it is to provide for your family when there are no wells to draw water from, as a paralell to some parts of Africa. Games ended and the little kids went away, but we stayed in the courtyard. It was dark by this time, and getting kind of cold, so the guy and me found some cover in some crawlspace on the edge of the courtyard. One thing led to another, class ended, and we went inside. Inside it was a huge old building, kind of like a cross between our welfare high schools and Hogwarts. For some eason, I knew my way around it, so when a girl came up to me looking lost, and asked for directions to the front door, I could easily give them to her. I dream weird things.

I think I've come to a conclusion, today I will do a little cooking, then go out, and finish my more involved cooking tomorrow, hopefully.

563. Saves The Day - Certian Tragedy
Well, there really isn't much new to say. I'l looking in yet another direction for my next year of schooling... looking into maybe taking first-year kinesiology, seeing if I enjoy it... and if I do taking that as a jump start to med school. If I don't enjoy the first year, transfering to first year engineering. It's at least a start to a plan. A first step... because I really wouldn't mind taking some of the classes offered through kines just for general interest sake.

Today is Shrove Tuesday, pancake day. No pancakes for me *tear* I was too lazy to cook them. Lent starts tomorrow, and though I'm not fasting this year, as I believe that would be a bad idea right now, I am giving up fast food. Man, I'm going to miss it, and I'm going to have to get my required fats somewhere else... but I'm thinking making popcorn at home and oiling it up might do it for me. I've just got to make sure I actually do that.

MSN is down; I was hoping to talk to some people before work today. Ah well. I've really got to get around to calling people though... Melissa, Kim, Danny, Ryan... all the people I promised I'd start seeing again come February. Maybe I'll do a massive call to everyone on my break today, or maybe I'll just bring a book. Speaking of work, and my break, I need to get my stuff together before I leave.

Ciao.

349. Incubus - Nice To Know You
It's been an eventful week... of sorts. I bought myself a new outfit, which cost me a lot of money... but oh well. I needed some "nice" clothes. Did all my cooking and cleaning, which really needed to get done. Now I have food for the week and am not rolling my ankles over the crap on my bedroom floor. There's a lot more I'd have liked to do, like read more... see more people... but neither category has been completely lacking. Last night was another Second Cup party. Bre, Sara and I started off at the Head, moving on to Schanks at 8 where we spent the majority of the evening feeling slightly out-of-place in the sports bar. Met up with Rachelle, Katherine, Nicole, Julie, Gerry, and Nick through the night there. It was fun. Eventually, Bre's friend Nick ended up driving me home from the Swan, which I'm not certain if I thanked him for... but I meant to. Anyhow, I should head off again.

203. Deftones - Digital Bath
I took the train back form Dalhousie station late last night, on the way home from Genesis' house. A boy at the station started talking to be, "What do you think that lever is for?" *stare* "I've got no idea." "And now the people watching the camera will be wondering what the fuck we're looking at." Which continued on the ride south, talking about shoes, cell phones, the internet, Taoism, music, bars, and I don't know what else. His stop is somewhere downtown, but he missed it and rode the train to Anderson with me where we exchanged numbers with the intention to hang out sometime. It was the easiest and funnest conversation I've had with a stranger in a long time. I don't know if Behn will call, or if I'll call him... but it'd be cool to be friends with him. He's interesting.
I went to the Y this morning with my mom and Jasmine. Did some weights, some cardio, a lot of water consumption. They had a scale in the locker room, and since I haven't weighed myself since grade 11 when I was 155-ish, I decided to give it a go. It was the kind of scale they've got at doctor's offices, so I know it was giving me a proper weight. I now weight 135. I didn't think I'd fluctuated that much, but it's probably mostly muscle loss. Went for vietnamise with my mom after the Y, and now I've got to make some dinner to eat while at work tonight.

32. Pixies - Velouria
Well, I got over it... kinda. Still not overjoyed at the parental situation, but keeping my distance and biding my time. It seems to work the best. Come home after they're asleep, leave before they wake up. Actually, I much prefer doing that, although it leaves me with little sleep. I'm so used to getting little sleep that when I'm in bed for over 6 hours I feel tired. 4-5 is prime. Anyhow, worked with Bre and Rachelle today. It was dead; I thought I might die as well. There were times we'd go hours without seeing a single customer... and all the cleaning had been done by Bre and Sara earlier. It was so slow, we were out of there at five-after. Sara brought back my Squee and Jacob's ladder, so I'm going to offer them to Bre before taking them home, and I'm going to try to remember my Jhonny comics to lend to Sara as well.
Tomorrow I'm going to be out, so if anyone's trying to reach me, I should have my cell and be able to hear it, but don't even bother calling home or coming online. And... I'm being kicked off, so goodnight all.

770. The Used - A Box Full of Sharp Objects
I hate my dad sometimes; I really do. I didn't throw MY KEYS at you when you told me you had to know exactly where they were at all times and needed them and wouldn't tell me why when I asked, simply because I had to go to work before you were going to be back. "I don't need to tell you why, just give me your effing keys!" I didn't throw them, I tossed them. And yes, it was the same way I'd toss the keys to a co-worker if they asked for them and weren't in reaching distance. It's not my fault your hand-eye co-ordination is shit. It's not my fault you didn't catch them and they fell, and even if I had it wouldn't justify your whipping them at me with all your strength. "Don't you fucking throw shit at me." I DIDN'T! You know, it hurt. Yeah, it hurt my leg, but that's nothing. You know, you made me want to leave again with that move... but I've been trying so hard to be the good kid you want me to be, working, going to school, volunteering, studying, trying to help around the house, that I no longer have anywhere to leave to. I hate what you make me want to do. I don't want to feel like that. So no, maybe I don't hate YOU... I hate what you do, how you make me feel. I know I don't hate you, because for some reason I still care what you think. "Ideas, not items." right?

744. The Starting Line - The Drama Summer
New Foamy today at Ill Will Press, for all those who follow but are too lazy to go check for updates. Worked this morning, and it was steady for once ^^; yay! It's been so dead lately, it was nice to have things to do. Going to Edmonton tonight, until tomorrow evening. So, if you can't get ahold of me, that's why. I'm getting a $90 credit back on my textbooks, and have decided to buy clothes with it. Nice clothes, so I don't look like such a bum when I go out. Who wants to help? Any volunteers are welcome. Hmm... well, I'm rather hungry, and should make some food before I have to leave, so I shall go do that promptly. Later!

67. The All-American Rejects - Your Star
I got up this morning and did some x-core baking. Now I have bran muffins and banana bread, mmm... yum. Ate some brown rice spaghetti with prego for breakfast, and made myself some salad, and wraps for dinner at work tonight. Yesterday was the Physics exam. It felt so good to be done school. I am now out of school, for the first time since I was four. Wow, that's 15 years of my life. I'm looking forward to reading more than textbooks again. I'm looking forward to having time to see people, to work out, to cook food. Anyhow, I've got to brish my teeth, and head to work. So, I suppose I'll update at some point.

At the library, only one unit of Physics left. I'm not going to finish it in the two hours I have left, but I'll come close enough that it won't matter. "Nature of Matter" hmm... most interesting, yet most difficult part of the course. I've got a 90% average so far in the key, which I'm hoping to replicate on the exam. You know, the funny thing is, I'm not "really" studying. I didn't really study for any of my exams. It's more... practicing the kinds of preoblems they're going to give me. I didn't go through any of my notes, or read the textbook, or try to re-learn things that I had forgotten. I've just been relying on what I remember, and what I make up as I go. I find it quite strange, that that's all I ever do. Other than my one year at Mount Royal, I don't think I've ever "studied" for an exam, just practiced. I guess that's because I get formula sheets, and concepts are easily made up if you look at the formulas related to them and think for a minute. Hmmm... There's a cute guy in the pod next to mine upstairs. Actually, I don't know if he's cute because I can't really see his face, since, y'know, he's studdying in his pod and all. But he's got a 14 ga. earing, and that's kinda hot. He's also definitely not in high school, looks older than that. Erm, so yeah. I'd better be off to tackle this last unit before le biblioteque (sp?) closes for the day. Later!

218. Cinderella - So This is Love
My ears are leaking lymphatic fluid. Yummy. I'ts leaving nice crusties on my earings that are fun (but not very sanitary) to pick at. I've been having an allright day, though I wish it was winding down right about now. I need my second wind. I set my alarm for 3:31 am, and was out of bed by 3:45 am. For breakfast I had a plate full of pasta/prego, a can of brown beans, a pot of tea, and two slices of toast. I was thuroughly full. By the time work started, at 6:30 this morning, I was wide awake and rearing to go, which was a good thing. Let's just say, I was there at 6:30, we open at 7, and people were waiting in the parking lot at 6:45. It was busy all day. I think I did grinds five times during my eight hours. And now... all I want to do is watch a movie or something, but I've got to study ><; and then work out ><; erg. Well, I guess sitting here, complaining about it, won't get it done any faster.

From Kendall's blog:
Set your mp3's to "random" and list the first ten.
1. M-Flo loves Boa - the Love Bug
2. Sugarcult - Crashing Down
3. Boa - Double
4. Fall Out Boy - Saturday
5. Cradle of Filth - Haunted Shores
6. Dido - Life For Rent
7. the Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Miles Away
8. Rites of Spring - For Want of
9. Led Zepplin - Stairway to Heaven
10. The All-American Rejects - One More Sad Song

my new 12ga. earings.